yeah... i hate life. it sucks. but then again i'm a freakin psycko so i guess it doesnt count for you guys. for the past few days ive been highly depressed. its really sad. Joey (the guy from the cute n happy picture) is now my best friend... atleast i'd like to think so. he says we are, so i (obviously) believe it. anyways. a month before anyone told me, i already knew that he liked this girl steph and steph liked him. 2 weeks before anyone told me, i started encouraging him to go out with her. ... my reason for that is: because i thought that if i see them two dating then i might get over him. i dont know where that stupid idea came from, but it all fits with the fact that im a psycho o.O. anyways, he finally goes out with her. i thought i could be happy for him...but i tend to predict things and i dont like that o.O well... yeah cause... i dunno why o.O, but i tend to have "visions" ... i dunno i sound even more psycho now dun i? lol yeah. anyways its hard to explain. I tend to predict things through dreams or day dreams... or just thoughts o.O; so anyways...i "predicted" (lack of a better word) that steph doesnt like me, and that she'll tell joey that she doesnt want him hanging out with me. well... thats basically what just happened. i found out that she DOESN'T like me... heres (according to joey) her reason: becuase im perky... and what?? shes any fuckin better??? *evil laugh* HAHAHA! anyways. i asked him if he WANTED me to walk around the world looking and acting all depressed ('cause i am) and showing it off to ppl, and ppl asking me whats wrong and pissing me off, and me being suicidal and then actually end up dying??? he says he wasnt saying that but then i said that his fucking girlfriend basically was o.O; so that basically shut him up. anyways. yeah so his gf doesnt like me, and he decides to treat me like shit that just came out of a horses ass... it hurt alot. first: yesterday when we were all hanging out (she happened to be there .. obviously) i tend to give ppl hugs alot.. especially joey.. we hug alot o.O;; anyways. i was gonna give him a hug.. he just stood there staring at me, while his gf gave me dirty looks (like always)... so yeah he didnt give me a hug. i turned around and walked away bitching about his fucking gf. today. she wasnt there but he still treated me like shit, until i broke out crying and my friend robbie went to talk to him. well.. he still treated me like shit, until both joey and i were sitting under the table (it was coooooooold!!) and i finally started talking to him. he stopped after that.;;;; now for my second "prediction".... they're relationship isn't gonna last long. im not saying that cause.. i want them to break up so maybe i can get back with him... thats not true. shes gonna screw up somehow..either by being all controlling or by cheating on him.... first off: shes NOTHING like us.. all crazy and bloodlusty (lol!!) and evil and psycho.. nothing at all... its all just an act. and i dont know how joey cant see it.. but me and her BEST friend can see it......its pretty sad. anyway no one can see them as anything more than just friends... but if she ends up cheating on him *I* want to be there and catch her.. i want to be the one who gets to tell joey and spoil her little plan... ^^ im eeeeeeeevvvvvvvvviiiiiiiilllllll.. and according to ppl.. im evil in a cute way hehehe.. but depressed >.